scoutusmil

i suppose theirs not much more i can right that will have any meaning to anyone. mmy real life friends have all but forgotten and left me to rot. all i have left is what i know on second life and few of troughs people i will ever meet. its funny how emo one can get over the lose of so little. but over time i have detached almost completely from normal society. operating only normally online and completely devoid of the ability to function in the real world. i have failed as a human being and for that i cannot excuse myself. i suppose i was right though in the end. how i might be cursed. but it wasn't god who did it to me, it was me all alon

well i am on vacation 30 days. so far i have been to NY and amn constantly partying n NJ. i got to do ALLOT in ny with in the three day time crunch i had but it was everything i hoped for. i was robbed twice before i left while i was doing reintigration training in GA but my time in NY more then made up for it. me and emmy got to work a little on drawing ^^o but we were so tired on the last day we never actualy finished any of the sketchs lol. leaveing NY sucked, i wanted to stay at least a few days more but sadly that was not possible. if emms cool with it we have allot of pictures of the local state park. which had a stuning beuty to it.

theres a girl i like, sounds wierd compared to my last update but that was when i was keyed on the single life. this new girl i like is someone very special and dear. beutifull beyond words and smart all around knowing both her language and mine fluently. shes a godess in my eyes, her writen word sweeter then the whine of the gods, her eyes like a fire that could mealt my soul and her hair dark like a perfect night. i find myself growing more found of her by the day, each day i get a few messages and each is lenthy and full of things that make a sad man happy. words of concern and words of hope. and some words that will forever stay between