i suppose theirs not much more i can right that will have any meaning to anyone. mmy real life friends have all but forgotten and left me to rot. all i have left is what i know on second life and few of troughs people i will ever meet.

its funny how emo one can get over the lose of so little. but over time i have detached almost completely from normal society. operating only normally online and completely devoid of the ability to function in the real world. i have failed as a human being and for that i cannot excuse myself.

i suppose i was right though in the end. how i might be cursed. but it wasn't god who did it to me, it was me all along who over time cursed myself. taking my ability to blend into the "norm" im expected too. well fuck the norm i say, fuck you and fuck this world for all its become. a bunch of fucking tools who are afraid to see something differently, to accept thoughts who are different. well if your one of thoughs normal people you can go fuck yourself now. im done with this shit.

done with this lie, heh military dose not even know i have a boyfriend can you be leave that shit? lol
all i wanted was a friend, a person to listen to me and see me for who i am. im not fucking ugly, im not a bad person but you know what you al want a bad person and im not going to be him. so thats it im done. im done trying to convince the world that im trying im done trying to make a person love me. im giving up on all of you now and i'll leave it to the loanly years to come for it to solderer in, becouse i am tired of being hurt by you.

good bye, pheh or perhaps not. its up to you...